Today I was frustrated. I was sleep deprived. I was sad because I was stuck inside on a beautiful sunny day. Little man was cranky and fighting sleep half of the day. It just wasn’t the best day really. I just felt really out of sorts, overwhelmed and unmotivated. I really wanted to have a pity party until I remembered something… I’ve waited my whole life to be where I am right now.
When I was little, I loved baby dolls. I took them everywhere! I think it was until I was ten or so before I gave them up. I just loved pretending to be a mommy, and I couldn’t wait to have my own babies one day. Also when I was in high school, I always daydreamed about having a family, having my own house, and finding the man of my dreams. I would just zone out in class and think about the future wishing I could speed up time. I wish I would have just been content and enjoyed myself in the moment.
Today when I felt exhausted and overwhelmed, I had to look around and realized how far I’ve come and how blessed I am. I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me and his son, we have our own place, and we have our precious little JJ. I love our little family. I am where I’ve always wanted to be. I shouldn’t be complaining. I should be super happy and thankful!
Next time I get discouraged, I need to remind myself of these things. Things can be overwhelming at times, but life is great! I have so much to be thankful for. I am blessed.
