Clingy or Connected?

From the second my son was born until now, a month later, I have spent all but maybe 2 hours tops with him. Wherever he is, that’s where I am. Besides a couple quick trips to the store while my boyfriend was home watching him, he has always been right next to me. Even when I go to the store without him, I miss him a little and end up talking to the cashier about him and maybe sometimes a even a random person in the isles too. It’s like my son and I are connected, and when I’m not around him, I don’t feel right. Or am I just clingy?

Lately my boyfriend has been begging me to let someone watch the baby a little while so we can go out on a date. I want to, but I don’t really feel good about it. JJ and I are on a 3 hour cycle at the moment. He drinks 3 ounces every 3 hours. He’s like a timer! After 3 hours, he cries because he’s hungry unless he’s knocked out asleep. Anyways, if I don’t breastfeed him, I have to pump. Since I’ve had mastitis, my doctor was strict about making sure I pumped or fed every 3 hours. I mean I’m not always exactly on the 3 hour mark but it’s pretty close. 3 hours from the minute we leave the house doesn’t give us much time to do much. Plus if I leave, he has to be with specific people. I only trust a few people to really watch him and follow how I say to do things.

My boyfriend picks on me calling me the mama bear. He says I’m clingy and overprotective. I know he’s right, but I just want what’s best for our baby. In a few months when JJ is bigger, I’ll be more likely to let someone watch him while we go out, but at one month old I think it’s okay to be this overprotective and clingy because he’s so little.

I think it all boils down to the connection us as mothers have with our children. They are a part of us. They lived within us for nine months. They need us. They depend on us. It’s hard for us to pull back and let go a little sometimes. I think that is totally fine. It just means we are good mothers and we love our babies. ❤️