2019 Reflections!

I can’t believe that we just said goodbye to 2019 and hello to 2020! This year has been full of triumphs, trials, sickness, health, and much more. Last night I enjoyed having a friend over to visit for a while. She loves playing with JJ. We used to be coworkers, and after 2 years of working full time together, we became best friends. For supper, I made quesadillas, and we had sparkling grape juice too. My friend left around 8:00pm, and it was just my family of 3! Other than JJ throwing a little tantrum due to being tired, it was a good night. Javier and I were laughing and goofing off watching funny movies and videos, and forgot to look at the clock at 12:00pm. When we realized it was almost one, we finally went to sleep. Our New Year’s Eve was simple, but I had a blast.

I will have to admit, I definitely walked out of 2019 a completely different than I walked into it. In February of 2019, I moved into a trailer with my significant other. We didn’t have a lot, but we were just fine with that. We turned nothing into something, and we have made a great home for our little family. Even though that was a big change in our lives, we had no idea how much our lives were about to change. On April 19, 2019, we became a family of three. After being pregnant for what felt like forever, we welcomed Javier David Salgado-Frazier (JJ) into the world! That was the most crazy and beautiful day of my life. Javier and I also had our first Mother and Father’s Day. That was so special too!

Motherhood has changed me completely. It has changed my perspective on life, it has given me more compassion for others, and I just have such a greater purpose in life because of my son. Parenthood has also brought out a sleep deprived, short tempered mama bear from time to time as well. I’ve never hurt anyone, but I’m not proud of that side of me when it comes out. I’ll just say this, motherhood is hard, and if anyone tells you different, they are a liar. Haha!

All jokes aside, I have loved being a mom. My son is my little sidekick. I have not been away from my son for longer that 4 hours at a time since he was born. Being a stay at home mom is sometimes really hard, but I have loved it for the most part. I have loved watching him grow from the cuddly sleepy newborn to the very curious, rambunctious, and smiley 8 month old. He definitely keeps me on my toes!

I have also gone through so much health wise this year from being pregnant, giving birth, and postpartum. I also chose to breastfeed. That came with it’s own struggles such as mastitis, always having to be conscious of my food choices, and leaking all over the place in the first couple of weeks, but breastfeeding has been super rewarding for me. It also took my body a good 6 months to regulate itself to my regular menstrual cycles so the 2 pregnancy scares I had during that time were icing on that cake. Haha! That was just the physical part. I have really tried to keep my mental health where it needs to be as well. As long as I am rested, I have no problems, but on my sleep deprived days, it’s hard to feel like myself. I am working on better ways to deal with that though.

I also have to brag on Javier. He has really been the most loving and supportive man in the world. We love laughing together, and I have LOVED seeing him as a wonderful father. I’m glad he is my son’s father and the love of my life. Also, I have really seen him transform from boy to man in the past year, and I am so very proud of him. We came into 2019 strong, but we are even stronger now.

We have also had some family adventures along the way throughout 2019! We have gone to the Greensboro Natural Science Center, the zoo, a pumpkin patch, and the beach! I have so much fun going new places with my little family. I love to travel and explore with my boys whether it’s 3 hours away or 30 minutes away. An adventure is always fun!

Even though 2019 will definitely be a year for the books, I cannot wait to see what 2020 will hold for us! I have set some goals that I will share with you later on this week so stay tuned! Have a Happy New Year!